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Name: Jacque
Location: Oklahoma, United States
Gender: Female
Interests: I love the performing arts and I love being with my friends. I was in drama several years and I've done fashion shows and taken dance. I really enjoy food...all sorts especially foreign recipes. Marilyn Monroe rocks. I also love to paint and draw. I would say I'm a pretty good artist. I love music w/ a passion. Some of my favorite bands System of a Down, The killers, and Evanescence, and the Red Hot chili Peppers. I played volleyball for 8 years and I love athletics. I'm always down to having fun and I'm always down for good food!!
Expertise: Eating and being weird. Oh and talking.
Message: message meEmail: email me
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AIM:  lilcrackerjack87
MSN: crazy_chic1987
Yahoo:  germosgurl
Member Since:
5/23/2004
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| I procrastinate waaaaaaay too much.  I do get stuff done everyday, but I spend half my day over sleeping, watching tv, or on the computer. By half my day I mean then time I'm home when Gera's at work. however, after this blog, I'm going to get stuff done...I think...
So my coffee maker died. I'm really frustrated about it, but that didn't stop me from making coffee!! Now I just take a mug, put a filter on top, add some ground coffee on top of the filter, and then pour hot water through. It takes a little while to do it, but coffee is worth it to me. My house is cold in the mornings and it helps me wake up and get things done. I've been adding hazelnut creamer to it....delicious!
German and I are doing great.  We are getting closer to God and I'm loving it. Trusting God whole heartedly with decisions is life changing!!! God has taken away my stress and worries completely. He's even taken away my worries about finances! I'm not saying things are perfect for me...I still have a TON of room to grow, but life is good right now. I can't think of single thing I need that I'm without right now. Now that doesn't mean I have everything I want because that's far from the truth, but I am completely provided for. 
Anyway, I better go start being productive. Hope everyone is doing awesome. you know if you ever need anything I'm here for you! God Bless!!
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| So I have been having my days to myself with German and I's schedule being so different. I'm getting a lot of stuff done during this time. Like wedding planning and cleaning, and other errands. I'm also spending some of this time with friends and watching movies on tv by myself. For some reason though, I feel lonely. I don't want to be alone at night. I hate it when German leaves to go home at night. He comes over til one and stays til two. And that's my time with him. But, it's not just him I miss...I realize I still spend hours by myself everyday. I like it sometimes, but it's frustrating at other times. I wish my car was working and I had more money. That limits what I do A LOT. Although, some of this independence is invigorating because I miss it. Sometimes I wish I was more independent and in school and working hard with great grades and becoming something important. I know I could do that, but I also know that's not what God has planned for me. I like his plan for me as well, but sometimes my pride wants to take over. Anyway, I'm learning that too much time alone allows satan to tempt me and put bad thoughts in my head.
I've never been self-conscious really before. I don't usually care what others think of me and I'm okay with how I look. Yea I hated glasses back in the day and I'm so thankful that I learned how to fix my own hair by high school, but I didn't care too much about those things. I'm finding myself down about the way I look now. It's true I have put on a lot of weight since high school, but it's still a very recent feeling. I'm getting teased at work about my "back fat" (love handles) always hanging out of my pants. I've tried long underneath shirts, but they still come exposed. I've been teased before, but now It's affecting me. I'm starting to feel sooo unattractive and I hate it. It doesn't help that I see girls who are the size I wish I was. I don't want to be skinny...no affense to anyone, but in my opinion meat is sexy on a girl, BUUUUUTTT I have too much. Anyway, I see these girls who are fine the way they look and they complain about being fat. What's worse is they complain to me or in front of me. They really just talk about how bad they look and how they weigh so much. It's so inconsiderate of them!! How do you think that makes me feel to hear that. Because if you think you are fat than I must be a huge slob!! No one thinks about that. It's so rude and it pisses me off. Well, I'm working on losing weight, but until then, I'm finding it hard to feel pretty anymore. I even feel like I should intentionally make my bridesmaids look horrible at my wedding because they are all so much more attractive than me. Lol, I wouldn't do this, but it is tempting.
Well, now that I've ranted I'll talk about the more positive things. German has been really amazing. He's trying his hardest to keep me the happiest girl alive. He's so loving and I really appreciate all hi efforts. We had a a great valentines. I made him chocolate covered strawberries, brownie and cream cheese cup cakes, tator tots, and strawberry lemonade. I also made him a big card and got him a picture frame with a picture of us in it. Then he got me this wooden card thing that he hand made himself. Then he used a wood-burning kit to burn me an extremely sweet and loving message in it. I really love my gift. We both had to work though, so not a lot of time together, but we went and got breakfast together at chick-fil-a (we had coupons to eat free there). Then two days later was our 5 year anniversary. He took me to get pictures made and I also got a free make-over from dilliards before hand. That was so sweet. We got them done at jc penny's. Then that evening I had him meet me at my apartment in his suit. I was dressed in a formal dress with my hair in an up-due and I cooked him a steak dinner with portebello mushrooms, fettucine alfredo with shrimp and corn on the cob. We had dinner by candleight and I baked him a chocolate rasberry cake (thanks Jamie for the recipe) for dessert. We drank gingerale in wine glasses and we rented and watched the movie we started dating on (daredevil). Afterwards we met w/ Brian and went and played pool at Vickie's dads. So it was a great night.
Marriage counceling has been going great! German and I are learning a lot and we are using the advice an applying it and it truly works. I'm really thankful for him. I'm glad I'm going to spend the rest of my life with German.
Well, I'm off to bed. If anyone read this, than I give you props, because that's a lot of reading! Anyway, goodnight and God Bless!!
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| So I never use this thing, but I do check on it occasionally. I just wanted to post something since I haven't in forever. I'm getting married April 5th this year, if you don't already know. Wedding planning is coming along slowly but surely. Anyway, life is great. I'm roommates with my great friend Vickie and I love her to death. And that about sums everything up.Have a great day! God Bless!!
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| Yay!!! Or as Vickie would say EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! Btw, Vickie I love it when you make that noise when your excited. Sometimes when I'm down I'll think about that and it will always cheer me up!  So...about the yay...well things are really good right now!!!! My life is back on track with God. There is still room for improvement, but I'm working on it. I have the most wonderful, loving, sweetest man I could ever ask for. German really does go above and beyond for me. I just got a car FINALLY a couple of days ago. My parents bought it for $1600 and I'm paying them back. It's a 1993 Ford Taurus SHO. It looks pretty new still and it's not boxy or really girly. It has automatic everything and everything is in really good condition. It gets up to speed REALLY fast. It may not be the coolest lookign car, but I LOVE it. I have the freedom now. I was so sick of having to depend on other people. I couldn't even go to the store unless German could take me or my roommate was home. Now that I have a car to go where I want I went and got a GREAT job!!! I got a job at a daycare which is going to be sooooo awesome because I loooooooooove children. I'm going to be getting $9 and hour which is a little decrease in pay, but it won't really be because I'll be working full time. Plus, this is something I loooove to do so money doesn't matter. I start training Monday!!! I'll be working with the 2 yr. olds, which is my favorite age to work with!!!! You guys, I am so excited. I am so thankful right now. I honestly think I deserve this. I have struggled all my life and now I'm finally getting to taste real happiness: awesome relationship with God, an awesome boyfriend who I know I will eventually marry, a dream job, my own place, and a car to get me back and forth. Oh and I got contacts which is really awesome as well because glasses are sooo much harder on my eyes because of my prescription being so strong. All this is thanks to my parents: My Heavenly Father and the two people that brought me into this world. Also, thanks to the friends who have given me rides, lended me money, and been there for me through the hard times!!! I meant for this to be short, but oh well there was just too much to say!!! Well, I hope everyone is doing awesome. You know anyone can call or message me about anything at ANYTIME. I'll do my best to listen and be there for you!!! God Bless!!!
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